重逢

原本是在測試玩耍Google AI編故事的能力，輸入自己的中文實名，想看看它能為我編出一個什麼樣的個人故事。沒想到它竟然能列出我國中時曾居住的地點及就讀的國中，當時看到，非常地錯愕，心想怎麼可能？？我從未在任何社交平台輸入中文實名(只使用英文名)及所就讀的國中，Google AI是如何編出這樣的訊息？？太恐怖了吧！結果經查證資料來源，才發現原來是我失聯很久很久的國中同學，在她的個人IG發文寫下了她國中時的一段回憶，其中提及我和當年的居住地。水落石出，Google AI並不恐怖，它編故事還是有所本的。

言歸正傳，當時看到同學的貼文，心中有很大的觸動，當年的那件小事竟還有人記得並存在她的回憶裡。剎那間，我被帶回當年的事件場景中，同學那小小弱弱的可愛身形又浮現在腦海，接著一連串國中時與她有關的片斷記憶悄然現身，有的清晰，有的模糊…但都是好的回憶！

從IG的發文循線找到她的FB帳號，當下很想立馬發訊息聯絡她，可是心中有些遲疑，因為畢竟已過了數十載，人是會改變的，萬一連絡上，卻發現已無法有像當年那樣的單純的友誼，豈不是反而毀了過去那段美好的回憶！許久不見的同學再相逢最後卻不歡而散的經驗，我已經歷過好幾個。成人間的友誼很多是靠利益、公眾需要或個人需要來建立與維持，但我現在已不想要這種摻入一些目的、利益和其他原因的友誼了。基於過去不好的經驗，即使現在網路如此發達，我卻從不會主動地去尋找過去的朋友或同學。

經過一、兩天的思緒沉澱，心想也許是天意吧！不然她怎會失聯這麼久突然又出現了呢？所以還是決定去聯絡她。結果聯繫上才知，這位老同學的父母家竟然與我家是在同一條巷子，兩個社區相距僅幾公尺，這麼近的距離，我倆卻從未相遇過，太神奇了！

希望這段久別重逢的友誼，可以相伴到老。

巴西鳶尾花，攝於鼓浪嶼

Gray Sky

 

It is gray sky today, no rain, but is windy……what kind of thing will be good for such air?

Humm……To read novel is a not bad idea, ok, do it.  Starting for the library now………..

Exciting feel is full of heart, reading novels always bring me into another different world,

traveling with writer’s pen to experience those time and space which I have never been.

Maybe in Victoria time, or in somewhere of Japan, or in some unknown place……….

I expect to meet someone who is charming in the book, no matter who is man or woman.

That will be a cheerful thing under the gray sky…………

 

Sjögren's Syndrome

 

10/05/2009 is a date which deserve to be remembered, I was diagnosed

Sjogren’s Syndrome by Far Eastern Memorial Hospital.  Sjogren’s Syndrome

is an autoimmune disorder in which immune cells attack and destroy the

exocrine glands that produce tears and saliva.  It is not surprised to me for

got this disease since  mother also have such illness for many years, however,

I still feel a little bit upset………sigh……..finally I cannot escape from the

destiny as mother……

 

Currently, there is neither a known cure for Sjogren's syndrome nor a specific

treatment to permanently restore gland secretion, it is a bad news, but the good

thing is that the patients with SS will not die in short time, for example, my

mother has lived with this disease more than 5 years up to now, and can go

anywhere she want without any problems.

 

After struggling for three days, I do not want to be in a bad mood all the time,

after all, upset is nothing help to my illness, so “Don’t worry, Be happy”,

at least, my current symptoms is very mild and still can have a quality life.

Cheer up!!!   “Laughter is the best therapy”.

 

 

 

Children

6/30/2009

 

Gibran had said:

 

Your children are not your children.

They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.

They come through you but not from you,

And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,

For they have their own thoughts.

You may house their bodies but not their souls,

For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,

Which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.

You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.

 

Today, Jim starts for London to attend the English summer camp, this is the

first time he goes abroad not to accompany with us.  I have been started to

miss him, but he just left me for two hours………..When he waved his hand

 through the window of tourist coach to say good-bye to me, I found my eyes

are full of tears…..Children someday will grow up and leave us, they will

have their own world, nothing we can do to stop it, just let them go, this is

a constant rule.  What are parents able to do?  Only to support and love.  

 

 

 

 

Drizzle‧Heerbrugg

 

6/03/2008, what will you recall under the drizzle?  It will recall me for the

memory in Heerbrugg.  Heerbrugg is a small town near by St. Gallen of

Switzerland, for business purpose, I had stayed in that town for a couple

of months in 2004.  When the first step footed on airport of Zurich, mood

 was heavy……. Because I knew there were a lot of problems waiting for

me to dissolve and clarify, this trip was not a sightseeing for sure……. 

Switzerland is very beautiful country, however, I cannot feel its beauty at

that time since the heart was coped by dark clouds………

 

In April of 2004, it was always drizzly as today’s weather, remembering

one Sunday morning, in order to release the tired body and pressure, I went

out from hotel even though it was rainy.  To walk along the road for 3 hours,

no destination..... just walking and walking and walking……… The rain

doted on my face and cool air intruded into my lung, there was no people

on the road, only had few dogs on the side.

 

Year 2004 is unforgettable….. Frequently, pull the luggage to walk in the

airport and wait alone in the departure lounge, to and fro Zurich, London,

Paris, Taipei…..That year was filled with traveling, and heart was occupied

by solitude……………….

 

 

 

Wind‧Azure Blue Sky

5/13/2008, it is windy and sky is azure blue, wind is a little bit cool like

as the one in autumn.  To feel the wind at this moment, it brings me to

remember Rossetti’s poem:

 

Who has seen the wind?

Neither I nor you:

But when the leaves hang trembling

The wind is passing thro’.

 

Who has seen the wind?

Neither you nor I:

But when the trees bow down their heads

The wind is passing by.

 

 

 

Watching the blue sky, it brings me to remember the same sky in Paris

on 6/27/1992, at that time, I stand in the front of Arc de Trimphe and

looked up at the sky to praise its color, how azure blue it was………….

Paris of 1992, it is my first time to go France, as for the language capability:

English was poor and French was none, but what I have only was a young

heart with a lot of bravery.  That trip was an adventure for me, it contained

bitter and sweet, whatever it contained, I enjoyed it for all. 

 

 

Time fleets so soon, Paris of 1992 has been far away from me, but its

scenery was branded on my mind, sometimes, it recurs unexpectedly

cause of meeting the similar circumstances.  The memory it left which is

hard to be erased and replaced even though I have re-visited Paris later on.

 

Memories are locked in a box, and the key could be anything, may be

weather, color, scent, touch,…….   Once the proper key shows up, those

sealed memories will spring………..

 

 

Flower Festival in Yang-Ming Mountain

03/06/2008, after the breakfast, husband and me started for one day

tour to Yang-Ming Mountain for catch the ending of Flower Festival. 

In my memory, we have never been Yang-Ming Mountain during Flower

Festival, so it is an exciting experience to me.  Sakura, yes, a lot of sakura

blossomed everywhere, green grass mantle the earth, people smiled in

genial sunlight.  The year beginning with younger hope than ever! Weather

was changed from storm and winter to serene and mild.  What a pleasant

spring!!  Per Thoreau: “In a pleasant spring morning all men’s sins are

forgiven.  Such a day is truce to vice.”  Agree!!  At the approach of

spring, people will be influenced by the atmosphere of good will to become

new-born person.

 

At noon, we picnicked under trees, what food we prepared for our lunch?

They are as following:

1.      繼光餅 with natural salami

2.      Fruit salad

3.      Danish blue cheese

4.      Red wine

 

After lunch, a little bit of slightly dunk, we took a walk for a while to breathe

those air of spring.  Checking the watch, the time was up, we had to leave

to meet the time of kids coming home from school. One day trip was finished

in a relaxed and pleasant afternoon.  To appreciate husband for his proposal

of the trip to Yang-Ming Mountain, it contributed to such good memory for

me in spring.